Finalyly I had my room cleared.Well..kinda,now just waiting for a chance to bring in new furnitures and give my whole room a long due make over.
I thought my bones would break!
Btw Yng,hehe...I need the table you mentioned to start the first make over step.Thanks pret~
Love you soooo much~

I dont look fwd to tomorrow but again,without tml starting..this month will never ends.Shudders.
Next week would be tough as well,but I hope I am stronger than last week.
Well..at least now that I feel oh so secure again,I think I would be stronger.

I dunno..suddenly..Jason just become so wonderful.
Hehe..I am not too shy to say it here.
Now listening to Ronan Keating "when you say nothing at all".Reminds me of my first birthday celebrated with him.There at the beach,him struming and singing.Though the planes were a source of noise pollution.But that was one of the best-est date I ever had.Hehe.

Sigh..I miss him.

I really,now,kinda look fwd to the day when we are old enough to set up our own family.Our home,our children..our time.
I remembered in one of his smses yonks ago,he wrote something like..asking me not to cry now..cry when he proposes,cry when he put the wedding band on my finger,cry when we have our own home,cry when we have our first child..etc.
Hee..that is so..sweet...and something that he never tells me now.

I dunno what is he afraid of now..but most probably it is my fault.
I faulted alot in this relationship and that perhaps made him lose the confidence of having the future dream with me.

But...I hope...One day..I would be able to help him regain that confidence.

I just msg and ask would he sing This I Promise You should one day he would propose to me?
Duh...
Dont blame me for being impatient..Blame my winamp that is playing that song now.

I hope my dreams doesnt put a pressure on him..But I think it does:(

Sorry... -_-